The tragic death of social skills and friendships

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hi, why don't you listen to this song while reading :)

high school sucks. on so many levels. one of the suckiest parts of it is having a social life. one of the first requirements of high school is having a social life. love life is for people who've managed to ace the social part. i clearly haven't.

this is the part where i tell you about the friends i had in middle school. good lot. of course, back-biting is a MUST in middle school friendships. 

high school however seems like a different scenario. especially due to the fact that i was locked inside my house for two (2) years. first day was kind of weird because all these different people i was friends with in middle school, had friends of their own. i mean so did i, but everyone seemed really distant with each other and mostly kept to their own groups. (so did i)(what even are social skills?)

most of us had become kind of distant because we barely texted during the pandemic. a lot of the seniors graduated and everything really seemed out of place. but i think that going into junior year we're going to create stronger bonds because we've matured both mentally and emotionally. 

now like i said, love life is for people who have mastered their social lives. you know how when you think of a lover, you have certain expectations and pre-concieved notions in your mind. i have exactly that, but for friends. growing up with movies like zindagi na milegi dobara and yeh jawaani hai deewani, friendship has always been a very special thing to me. 

when entering high school, we realize our so-called “best friends forever” might not be the people we want to hang out with through high school, and definitely not forever after. and although a lot of the bonds you create in high school can be genuine and pure, a lot of us definitely encounter people who stir up trouble or break your trust. that's completely normal because in the end we're all kids and all of us are exploring things around us and building relationships. with failed friendships come the lessons and experiences for the future. but it also creates a very negative space in your mind where you refuse to trust people. 

i completely understand how this might seem like a ridiculous concept, for literal high schoolers dealing with 0.5% of what's to come, but me, a lot of my friends and people around me have gone through this very thing. being hesitant to trust people. coming out of a toxic and negative friendship (yes those exist) can really impact you mentally and maybe change the way you look at things. and that's okay.

you learn to let go.

high school has opened my eyes to people who are going to be there for me to hang out with, cry with, laugh with and be happy with, which is the positive side of it. However, it has also made me realize how fake people can be and also how people you may have strong relationships with or known for years just simply aren’t going to be good friends for you.

friendships and relationships help mold who you are, whether they be good or bad. Lessons are brought, and lessons are learned. high school quarrels won't matter after 5 years. i think.

in fact, the next time you're in good ol high school drama, ask yourself, "will this matter in 5 years". it probably won't. 


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