Growing Pains

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Hola mis amigos, long time no see, once again, I really miss writing on here so now I'm going to make an effort to keep doing that. WITHOUT FAIL THIS TIME ALRIGHT.

It's been a busy few months, the last 3 months went by preparing for and giving board exams, pre boards before that, inter school competitions before that. Projects, essays, submission deadlines just thinking about it makes me cringe. Now, don't get me wrong, I love studying, but sitting in front of a screen listening to the teacher blabber on isn't exactly my ideal form of syllabus intake.

This was a truly chaotic year and everyone who got through it should be very proud. Things were very uncertain to say the least, we began the year with the reopening of schools, then we closed again, a huge wave hit, then we opened again, then we closed again, then we had boards then we closed again and now we finally open again in January (if Omicron decides to take it easy on us). I mean it's really not that easy managing schoolwork both online and offline. One day I'm doing tangents in math in offline and next day we start with a whole new chapter in online? 

Anyway, I really hope this year brings in a lot of hapiness for us, things look uncertain once again but I know we'll get through it because nothing surprises us anymore, we got through a 2 year deadly worldwide pandemic, what's more?

Reminds me, we're hitting some MAJOR realizations here guys. It has been TWO WHOLE years since this godforsaken pandemic began. Let's map this, I was 13 and in 9th grade when this thing started, now I'm A WHOLE 15 years and in 10th? What were the gods thinking with this :| couldn't I have been like 45 when this started. 

Really skipped the whole growing pains stage am I right? Writing all of this down really helped, I'm sure reading this might be helping you, I am a very relatable person after all.

And what was it with this year and fluctuation, it was like watching a spinning wheel and hoping, crossing everything (including toes) that it somehow lands on "this-pandemic is over- now resume a normal life" (of course that's not happening)

About growing pains, I think this pandemic has made up a whole new genre of growing pains. "The post pandemic clarity"(I think that's a pretty solid name, for now) Even though I'm very thankful for my life and safety, I can't help but feel targetted and frustrated sometimes. I know, I know "turn adversity into opportunity" and I've done that, but at the same time I end up feeling lonely or saying " why me, why now?" Not a good feeling, definitely dont recommend, 0/10.

I think this is all my brain can handle, for now. I will definitely come back with something new tomorrow.









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