How To Enjoy The Lockdown? (+ an update)

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Lockdown, that one word we're all dreading right now. I think we've all had a fair taste of lockdown last year, didn't we? i remember being so optimistic and happy about getting to stay at home, i definitely don't think the same this year. it was a good energetic start, which slowly spiralled into bad mental health and laziness, this year however, i'm thinking to do things differently.

well, this year, things take a turn! i'm grade tenth now and boy do i have a lot of exams to give. NTSE, boards, my normal exams, pre boards, olympiads.....makes me feel excited to think about. but also scared? it's normal for all of us to feel scared, but we can't let it limit us, you know?

there's so many opporunities that i've missed last year, all because of my laziness to do things. 

now the real question, how do you enjoy the lockdown?

this is the one question EVERYONE asks when the lockdown takes place. 

i think it's safe to say, that we're all barely getting any time during the day. work, school, homework, extra classes, exams after exams and household work of course, how could we forget that? it's been one of the most painful aspects throughout this whole year. i'm so lucky to learn some domestic work, but it was definitely a huge challenge during the lockdown period.

this year, i've started to push myself. i've started to push myself into sleeping early, being attentive in class, completing my notebooks, signing up for things, continuing this blog and just trying to enjoy things in general.

there's a lot that i have to think about, i have a future laying in front of me and i cannot let the pandemic hinder me. time and tide wait for none! i've started to think a lot about where i want to go and what i want to do and i think i've come to a conclusion.

during the first lockdown, i tried my hardest to be productive. painting, singing, cooking. you name it, i did it. it was really fun but then comes the time where you go into burnout, you don't really feel like putting effort into things, even the smallest of tasks become a huge burden mainly because you did too much. 

so this time, i'm taking it slow. i'm trying to mix in all activities like studying and fun. i've never wanted to become a robot student with a monotonous life, you know what i mean? in India, student's are often taught to give up their childhood and prepare for exams and stuff. now, i'm not saying preparing for exam or your dreams and aspirations is wrong, but we're only human, aren't we? that kind of student life has always scared me and i'd much rather do anything else than only study and live a monotnous life.

in the end, you're always left with little to no time that is why, i think, it's in the little moments. having that one cup of tea in the balcony, going for a walk at night, making a special dish perhaps? 

there's so many things to see and do in the beauty of isolation. all you have to do is think and realize.


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